Am I Better Off Dead? Am I Better Off a Quitter?

As I promised, I will be bombarding my blog with heartbreaking songs. When I heard this reandomly in my playlist, I was strucked. Am I better off dead? Like their other song, I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing. I honestly fought for us. But he decided I wasn't worth the fight anymore. Ouch. Like this song goes "If she sees how much I'm hurting, She'll take me back for sure". I'm not so sure if he'll take me back. But I'm pretty sure I'm hurting too much.




Here's the Lyrics:

Am I better off dead?

Am I better off a quitter?

They say I'm better off now

Than I ever was with her

As they take me to my local

Down the street

I'm smiling but I'm dying

Trying not to drag my feet

Life After Love. Are You Still Alive After the Heartbreak?

Dear Miss Beauitch,

He messaged me today, he said "Life is so different when you're not in it". I miss him, terribly. Infact I'm crying again while writing this. It's sooooooo hard to move on. Everything is so different without him by my side. Even the flowers aren't so beautiful in my sight and the sun doesn't energize me the way it did before. The first few days of moving on is very hard, much harder than I thought. He's far, but he has always been in my heart.

I wonder when will I stop crying for him. I wonder when will I get over this hearteache. I wonder when will the flowers smell good again. I wonder when the sun will shine on my face again. I wonder if he thinks of me as often as I do. I don't mind if he doesn't, but when it snows, i hope he does. I hope.

One day, I can face the world with a smile, but for today, I'll cry my heart out.

I miss you Frosty. So much. So damn much.

Always love you,

Frosty's Girl

2ne1 It Hurts English and Korean Version

[CL] Naega jun sinbareul singo keunyeowa gireul geolgo
Amureohji anhge keunyeowa kiss hago
Naega jun hyangsu ppurigo keunyeoreul pume ango
Nawa haetdeon keu yaksuk ddo dasi hagetjyo

The Hardest Part of Falling in Love is....

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Moving on from the love you always thought would last.

When he said "But I want you to move on", I knew right then and there, there was no hope for us anymore. At least for now. Yes, i'm still hoping one day, our paths will cross again and if the love is still there, we can give this another shot. But for now, it's goodbye for me and him.

I do not enjoy the moving on part. It's the hardest for me. Because I get used to talking to him, spending time with him and basically do everything with him, it pains me to do all of it alone. I effin hate how all the songs reminds me of him. I told him i'm gonna stop crying until I run dry, but i'm still soaked and hurt. 

I miss him. I miss you.

Perhaps I'm gonna miss him even more but I will learn to live without him and just love him from a distance. It made me think, does he think of me? Is he reminded of me even for a second when he hears our music? Or did he totally forget about me? I will be posting videos and lyrics to reflect all my feelings so be prepared in my heartache songs ^_^

- Frosty's Girl

Vacation Time!

Hello ya'll!!! I'm having an instant vacation with fambam! Will be back on Monday! :)

If I'll have spare time, maybe I can squeeze one post :) have a great weekend!

Heartaches, Moving On and Loving Again..

I read across the web while I was browsing, "Don't be sad because it ended, smile because it happened". While this is right, when the wounds are fresh, it is good to be sad and grieve. After you've cried your heart out, promise yourself not to cry for the same thing again, leave that shit behind! Harsh but true. Heartaches will rob our happiness but sometimes, heartaches make us better. It makes us wiser and smarter the next time we go on a date with someone. Maybe not a date but the next time we found a person to love.

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Heartaches can make or break a person. When a person is broken after a heartache, sometimes the result is a shitty person who couldnt care less. It drives them to be hard and suppress their feelings until they no longer feel anything. I feel sad to those people who are like this. Lets call them the gamers :) Gamers are those who play with your feelings. They play around, A LOT. And the result? They make their toys like them. It's a cycle. Until they meet another gamer who plays the game better than them :) or, they meet a person that makes them believe in love again. I love that shit! Hahaha i mean when gamers stop playing because they've finally found the one who's more interesting than the game :) they lose the game but they gained something better :) true love.

For those who are broken, just got out of a relationship or those who are struggling to get over someone, you are not alone. You will always find a friend with Miss Beauitch ;) 

The Day He Said Goodbye.

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Dear Miss Beauitch,

He finally said goodbye. After months of fighting to make it all work out, he gave up. Was it me? Was it him? Was it the distance? Maybe it was the love? Has he found someone new? He said we're at our worst and what really knocks me out is when he said "this is goodbye for me".

Was that goodbye meant forever? Are goodbyes really for forever? What if he found someone new? I don't believe I can take it.I told him he may find someone to love and he will love her more than he loved me, if he really did, but he will never find someone that will love him much more than I did.

I still dream of that day where I can finally be with him, even just as friends. It's hard to keep on fighting when the one you're fighting for has already given up. I would give everything for us to workout, I will hold his hand as tight as it is just to not let him slip away. But he let go of my hand before I could hold it tighter.

I feel like a broken glass. I know I will be whole again in the future. But the cracks will always remind me of the day he said goodbye.

Hurting,

Frosty's Love

How Do You Know That You've Found The One?

To be honest, I don't know either. Seriously. Even after 40 years of being happily married, some people still go in the divorce lane. I have read somewhere that we should stop looking for the right one, instead we should focus on being the right one :) it makes sense though coz we're too busy looking for the one that we forget to love ourselves and be the right one instead. It's the same as be the girl your boyfriend can't live without.

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I know, majority of us girls have lots of issues in life. We're insecure of almost everything! Beauty, wealth, body and everything else. Guess what, somewhere and some time in our lives, there will always be that man, or men, who will love what you hate about yourself. Big butt, freckled face, big boobs, big tummy, big nose, fat legs, and all other things you're insecure about. As the saying goes, beauty is in the eye of the beholder :)

But really, beauty is not the reason why someone will you. Except ofcourse for those whose basis for love is how attractive their partner should be. This is dangerous because all of us will age, we get old. If your type of love is like this, you will never end up with just one partner. You will constantly look for attractive people. Beauty fades, but personality lasts :) 

How Do I Stop Myself From Loving Someone Too Much?

So how do you stop yourself from loving someone too much? Love yourself even more. Loving someone too much and if that someone doesn't love you the way you wanted to be loved, we often mistaken them from not really loving us. Relationships always have that one partner who loves their partner much more than you can imagine ( I know because I'm like that lol).

If you're too busy thinking how you can stop loving someone when that someone doesn't even think of leaving you or the likes, stop worrying and enjoy the relationship. The problem about being human is we tend to worry too much. We go on all negative and our brain creates these worst scenes and bam, you're starting a fight with you girlfriend or boyfriend. If only people would stop worrying and start enjoying then life would be much easier and happier!

I was always the jealous type! Take note of "WAS" because I am no longer the jealous, possessive and hands-on girlfriend that I was when I was younger. All day texting of where are you's or what are you doing or who's with you are no longer in the picture. Now it's okay that I cannot talk with my partner for a day but we just make sure to leave a message for each other letting each other know where we are and what are we doing and why we cannot go online or send messages.

So for all the jealous types out there, breathe, relax and enjoy!

The Ugly Truth: Lust vs Love

I titled this post the ugly truth because I know the truth can be ugly and yes, sometimes, if not always, it hurts like hell. It's given already that because of today's norms and trends, it is harder to find love because lust is everywhere. Sex comes before relationships, babies come before marriage and oftentimes people think about lust as the basis for compatibility in finding a partner. Now I have to disagree with this. This is one of the reasons why a lot of people are left broken hearted and depressed.

We need to change the way we're thinking and setting our standards in having a relationship. Yeah sex is good, it might be very good that you think you're in love with that person but really, at the end of the day, when you are tired or you just want to enjoy a good company, do you still find yourself in love with that person or the sparks just stay in the bed?

Personally, I would choose a partner that I can talk with, I can enjoy with because really,not all people are as physically active or lustful in nature. I know a lot of people will disagree with this but that's the truth ya'll, sex is good while it lasts. 

Love is when you take away the feeling, take away the lust, take away the good things and if you still fight and stay with that person, don't ever let them go. Problems will always be there, but it will all be worth it if it's love :)

When Your Man Ignores You, What Would You Do?

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I have this feeling he's been ignoring me. I know. I can feel it. I hate having to feel this way but I cannot continue on pushing myself to him. It's tiring to always initiate the conversation, to always find things to talk about just so the conversation won't go stale. I mean, I know you're going through something but is it hard to just tell me to back the hell off rather than ignoring me. Also, next time you have a problem tell me so I will not think you're ignoring me again. Hard thing about you guys is the fact that you shut us out when you're going through something. You always feel that you don't need us but there's really nothing wrong in admitting you need help. But for now, I'm seriously pissed of with one of the male species. Yes, you!

I hate you, but I love you!

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You're a great guy, today.

Yes, you change everyday and it's confusing the hell out of me. 

Today you're sweet. The next day you're cold as ice. It goes on for days and then you'll turn sweet again.

What the hell is wrong with you? If you're unsure of your feelings then tell me, don't include me in your confusing world. Well I guess it's too late for that because I'm caught in it already.

I hate you for doing this to me but I love you because you're the only one who knows me.

Sucks!

Waiting and waiting and waiting. Seriously?

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Rant:

I just hate it when a guy lets you wait for hours and then sweet talks you after hours of no-message. I mean, seriously man, can you just be a little considerate and be man enough to tell it staright to my face,"bitch I'm going out so I won't message you, don't expect any message soon". Done. I mean it's that easy right? Right?

Miss Beauitch says:

I feel you girl! But if a man tells you that, I'm pretty sure it would start off some serious fight. You would bring up things like he would go see other girl or things like that. And we know how men avoid arguing with their girl as much as possible. Why? Because we girls are the bomb. One word and we blow!